.Monday, July 21, 200812:25 PM
my fb is dying :X.. I not been training it le.. think stopping at 12x e most.. 120 then maybe start a mfs. my items can be used by mfs :X.. kinda save money in a way lolx. later gonna go shopping wif my kaki gabriel ^^.. think I might wanna go arcade to play my fav game : kof maxium impact 2 .. DAM long nv play le lor .. think hopefully can complete game wif 1 credit
I honestly ask myself : was I wrong to say all this? I already apologized to u le but I dunno how u gonna think of me already.. but was it correct that ur besties like tat say me?
(self pondering in e process.)
later dunno wanna have starbucks anot =X.. life to me right now, I will realli think of wat are e impt things to do.. frankly speaking I can say even gotten rid of my depression, I still feel withdrawn at times wif pple.. only those close to me then I wun have tat kind of feeling.. Its something thats dam taunting n hurting when u look back. Its like there still alil residue of the past that still remain in me .. I realli wanna get rid of it.. think alot of pple will nv believe that I did went tru depression. well, I can give a yes to that.. I did went tru depression for 2 yrs.. tat kind of feeling is realli indescribable.. depression is realli something not to joke wif, I went tru it n I can say its realli hurting to be in e process of it.. pple can realli dunno wats going on for tat individual.. but its realli crazy stuff going on for one who is suffering from depression..
think I gonna go bathe now n going out liao .. realli wanna buy some nice accessories later.. how I wish I can be brainwashed so that those images of my past can nv be replayed over n over again. dun think u noe me until u noe wat has happened during those 2 yrs. I realli hope that as time go by, e faith that I have in God will slowly wash e hurtful experiences that I had in those times.. its like at times everyone will go tru dark valleys, but I think mine was total pitch darkness back then.
quote of e day : wats e point of fighting when we lose ourselves? "_
